It's Hard ... So Hard

Well it's become obvious that this new WOE is very easy ... as long as you're organised. And up until now I have been. Very organised. Every week a shopping list containing only the ingredients for the week's food. Every day preparing the meals so that I always have something good to eat and every day's meals planned out with military precision, ensuring the requisite right balance of carbs, protein and fat. Until this week. Last week I didn't plan my meals in advance, didn't make a proper shopping list and just wandered aimlessly round the supermarket putting stuff in my trolley randomly. OK, I remembered the staples - soya milk, avocados, mushrooms, salad, but what I didn't account for was the sudden change in temperature. When it's cold and gray like this I don't feel like eating salads. I want something warm and comforting, and so instead of the salads I was going to have I've been using up my stash of faux shepherds pie with lovely green vegetables in butter.

Being off work for an extra day hasn't helped either. Not having to make food in advance for a few days soon got me out of the habit. So at 11.30pm last night I found myself in the situation of having hardly any food in the house and having not made any breakfast or lunch for today. Yes, I could have chucked together a mackerel & rocket salad (about the only things left in my fridge) but I couldn't be bothered. And I had nothing that I could do for breakfast. Luckily I have a canteen at work that sells breakfast items so was able to have bacon, scrambled eggs and mushrooms, and I had a meeting in another building today, so walked past a Pret a Manger on the way back and bought a crayfish and smoked salmon salad, but these two meals cost me almost £6 (completely outrageous for a few bits of nothing much) and leaves me with nothing for dinner (as I forgot to get the chicken breast I have left out of the freezer last night).

This is particularly bad for two reasons. Firstly, because I am going to the cinema with Lynne tonight and don't have time to cook anything much or wait for the chicken to defrost, and secondly because today is my TOTM hungry enough to eat a horse day. Normally I would be eating everything I could lay my hands on, but of course I have nothing to eat. Am manfully trying to resist the chocolate, and especially the jaffa cakes ... but I can feel my resolve weakening because of the lack of anything else to eat instead.

This lack of planning is a head thing - I am on week 7 of the IPD and it's all going well, so my head has decided to try and sabotage me. By not having bought enough food, I can be coaxed to eating the wrong things thus proving that as always in the past, this WOE isn't working. However, this WOE works and I am determined to not let my head get the better of me (although I am giving in on the jaffa cakes). Tomorrow I will be compiling my weekly menu, constructing my shopping list and getting back on track.

Oh and why does my hungry day always come the day before weigh day?