I knew it ...

Making the cheesecake was a mistake. I am obsessing about it and can't get through a day without eating a piece even after freezing the remaining pieces and promising myself I wasn't having another piece until after my Thursday weigh-in. Not so bad today when I hadn't had a huge intake of calories (I know I'm not calorie counting and the forum warns against it, but I can't help thinking it must make a difference), but yesterday when I had so much to eat it put my calorie count sky high. Worse still I missed tea tonight, having a protein shake instead so that I could have a piece. Maybe rather than trying to save it I should just eat the rest of it and then it's gone. I'm sure the sugar craving wasn't helped by my friend at work giving me 2 cadbury's cream eggs this morning for copying some cds for him - I didn't want them, but did get the craving for the cheesecake (because I know it's doable on P1). The eggs went into my desk drawer where they'll stay till I find someone to give them to.

I know that part of the problem is with fitday. Firstly being american it's hard to get the quantities right, also they calculate carbs differently so the reading comes out much higher - however I'm still having trouble getting to the 70/20/10 ratio for fat/protein/carbs. Today for instance I managed 7% of carbs and that's only because butternut squash shows so high on fitday. In order for my fat levels to reach 70% I would have to increase my calorie intake hugely. I had decided that my cheese intake is too large although bizarrely when I actually worked it out over the space of 13 days it works out at approx 2oz a day - which is hardly anything. What I have to do is not have cheese in a meal and then as a snack - either one or the other (this means finding other snack food). The other area I may need to check is on the cream. I seem to be getting through an extraordinary quantity (although not compared to some people on the forum who use 250ml+ a day!) although of course quite a bit went into the cheesecake as well. My jeans are definitely feeling looser this week and I am desperately hoping for a weight loss rather than just inches - although inches would obviously do rather than nothing!

What I need to do next is to increase my exercise. I've been completely pony at the walking so far especially considering the lovely weather, the main problem being that when I work at the pub I walk about 5 or 6 miles behind the bar and I end up offsetting that against the other days, almost all of which I end up with a healthy mark on my pedometer (last Thursday when I couldn't even be bothered to get dressed was an exception). Also at work I am still walking down the stairs (120 of them) instead of getting the lift and have started getting out at the 5th floor on the way up and walking the extra flight (to be built up over a number of weeks until I walk upstairs as well as down) and so trying to be motivated to go out walking (and around the block isn't the most inspiring walk ever) is hard plus my foot has been hurting quite badly for the last few weeks and so I find walking a bit of a trial anyway. I have been doing my upper arm exercises using an illegal can of custard (unfortunately only the 1 can so I have to do each arm separately) in an effort to try and tone up my bingo wings, but I am aware that my exercise levels should be increasing (the pink bible tells me so) and so I need to find something else to do. Time to find my old fitness videos and get back my gym equipment from Lynne - and I really MUST make the effort to at least use my treadmill daily if i don't go out walking!